[ daddy issues? ]

I'm not dating anyone and it doesn't even seem like it's in the cards right now, but pretty often, I think about what it would be like to be a father.

I get concerned about the things that I've learned in life. I wonder how that will translate over into the lives of children I may have. There are certain things that I imagine will change once a child is introduced into the world. I know that people are even more lost once that happens. There is already a lot of pressure filled thoughts running through my head, like: How can I change myself now, for the kid(s) I have later on? How would the attitude I have towards this (insert random topic) affect someone else?

I think a lot about how my dad might have done it. I'm confused a lot, cause I don't remember much of that. I hink I was mostly scared a lot of the time. That had to be a result of how he presented the rules in our house. Thoughts like these make me think about even the small things that I could do that would affect my child later on. Do I want to have them play sports? Do I introduce them to a love of music at an early age? If I let them watch tv too early, will it lead to them being addicted later?

What's really interesting is that I never thought that I even wanted children. I think it's one of those things though... It kinda sneaks up on you and blindsides you when you aren't expecting it. I think it's better tojust have the thoughts of things pop up, than to have a mistake happen. A lot of people from my high school class are now parents, which doesn't really surprise me, but it's interesting.

Guess I should really worry about that once that could become an actual possibility.

Silly me.

I'm out...